I feel like a failure in everything? ?

I can't be who my husband wants me to. I am not good enough for him. I moved states just to be with him. Quit both my jobs and lost all my friends. No matter what I do its never good enough. Heck this is wrong of me but he wants a kid,i do but when we have more money,to show him I care I went and bought opk to grant him his wish. I just feel worthless. Every time there is an argument its always my fault. He has said some pretty bad stuff to me that just has made me feel low. He promises things but breaks it. I can't trust him cause of that. I just don't know what to do. I love him I don't want a divorce. He just makes me feel bad a lot.